All posts tagged: emotions

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I’ve got my Tight Pants on

In my room I’ve got my favourite pair of jeans hanging up, nope not in the cupboard, but hanging from a shelf. They don’t fit me anymore. Sure I haven’t tried them on in a while but the last I did I couldn’t pull them over my legs. I distinctly remember when I thought the washing machine was shrinking them, turns out it was just my legs growing, in the wrong direction. I’ve kept them as a reminder, and goal, of where I used to be and where I’d like to get back to. One fitness tip which people always suggest for weight loss is keeping old clothes. If you get rid of all your old clothes you won’t remember, or realise, how much weight you have put on. Makes sense right?! In a way it’s like a frog in boiling water, if a frog is placed in boiling water it jumps out. If I try and put these old jeans on I just won’t fit. If a frog is placed in cold water which …

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Opening your heart…. with a crowbar

Sometimes opening your heart looks like a flower blossoming in the golden sunlight of a crisp spring day.  Sometimes opening your heart looks like acknowledging that person who smiles at you, even if there is an awkward tension between you and their situation.  Sometimes it looks like a hug from a friend, a cup of tea or dancing round the kitchen. Sometimes it means keeping  your gaze on that person who is speaking into your life, or letting the pain of losing a loved one flood in. Sometimes it’s continuing to love even when you have different connection goals within a relationship. Sometimes it looks like forcibly, and consciously keeping your heart open with a crowbar and letting the love and pain pour in even if all you want to do is drop the curtain. This has been my experience the past few months.  I’ve generally worn my heart on my sleeve, but I’ve also known how to keep my heart closed, at a distance and protected.  However, over this past year I’ve made a …